Well, I officially asked for my divorce late in the week and Saturday I got a message on Facebook from a long lost friend from high school....a guy friend. I always secretly had a crush on him but we used to dance to MC Hammer and Pump Up The Jam music and he was dating my friend back then! haha! Ok, I'm dating myself!
Sunday I was down his way so I sent him a text and suggested getting together for lunch. Next thing I know we had been at lunch for 4 hours, laughing and reminiscing. It was great fun to have lunch with someone that would actually talk to me, not watch sports on the closest TV. He suggested I come over for dinner, that he had steaks marinading. I declined his offer and headed home.
Ok....so funny how fate works! I didn't find this out til a month later, that while we were at lunch, my Ex (of 4 days) happened to show up at the same restaurant with one of his co-workers and saw me having lunch with a guy. He assumed I must have been having an affair before I asked for the divorce, which wasn't true!
A week later, High school friend invited me over for dinner and a bonfire. We had a great dinner on his patio and laughed for several hours. We started the bonfire and a couple neighbors came over and visited for a short time. It got late and I ended up spending the night because I had one too many cocktails. He was sweet...offering the guest room or his room, allowing me to chose! Heck... I hadn't slept with anyone else in 18 years! I was scared to death, but how could I pass the opportunity up? Needless to say, it was O.K. but I felt like I had no clue as to what I was doing!
Well, we have spoken since, and he has suggested we go out again but I have not taken him up on his offers. He lives kind of far away, but he is a great guy and has a lot to offer. Maybe I just wasn't that into him? Maybe I was just afraid? Afraid of what? Well, maybe giving up my Saturday night to him when I could be with someone else.
I still revisit this and wonder if I gave up a good fish for the greener grass on the other side of the fence?
Sunday, March 8, 2009
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