Can I Just Say....

UGHHHHHHHH!

Ok, this whole dating thing is so unbelievably frustrating!

I had another late night of talking with The Coach, 5 hours of chatting. It is great to talk to him and I just love hearing his voice. I feel like he is right there with me! He does a great job of holding a conversation and putting his two cents in as well and asking questions to keep the chatting going.

So, why am I so frustrated?

Well, we had talked about going out last night but plans fell through. We then talked about Thursday night, since he had a date with another woman planned on Wednesday night. At first I was ok with that, since we had just started talking. Now we have done lots of talking and he said that I am definitely #1 in the running so then why would he still take the time to go out with this other woman that he isn't even sure if he wanted to go out with?

If I was #1, wouldn't you think he would prefer to see me? Meet me? See if it the chemistry is there? I asked him the same question he asked me the night before. He wanted to know if the snowboarder said and did everything right, would I still want to meet him. I told him absolutely. So I asked, what if his date goes really well tonight, would he still want to meet with me? He said no doubt in his mind. So...ok we are on the same page there.

II guess if it was me, I would cancel my date and say that I wasn't feeling good, so that if it didn't go well with the date, then I could reschedule and I wouldn't have dissed anyone.

So am I wrong for thinking this way? Should I not stress about it? He did say he would send a text message today letting me know if he decided to go on the date or if we would go out. I didn't get any messages from him.

Well, I sent a text to him this afternoon because I couldn't stand keeping it in anymore...

"I just have to confess that I am a little
jealous that you another date tonight.
I guess it is kind of like your concerns
about the text messages from the
snowboarder."

I haven't heard back from him. He would just be getting home at this point, though I wasn't sure if he was going straight from work to this date since it was out that direction.

I'm trying to stay calm and breath and not be jealous...for Pete's sake...we haven't even met yet!